I CAN'T BELIEVE IT

No, the tittle doesn't entitle any good news. In fact, it includes more and more frustrating waiting. Like I said before, I still have two more publishers that haven't reply me yet (OMG OMG OMG), one of them said they aren't free recently so I must wait till next month (the quickest).

And today, I receive another email from another publisher (no, I'm not nervous anymore. Constant waiting and no hope do that to me) and guess what? 

I NEED TO WAIT FOR ANOTHER TWO OR THREE MONTHS FOR THEIR REPLY.

I really wonder how I am going to live through all these. I was thinking like, yeah, a month is enough for a girl to bear. If I don't get the deal, I'm going to post my novel online and suck it up then do another one. Yeah, that was my plan, no doubt.

But now? Another two or THREE months? Lemme see, it's already November or December by then. I can't believe I am just going to sit around here waiting for two rejection letters for THREE WHOLE MONTHS OR SOMETHING CLOSE TO THAT. 

I'm already ANCIENT by then. A plus, how am I going to write another novel while I don't even know where my fate lays? Not that I'm afraid, but it's really annoying whenever you write, you will think of that novel of yours that still haven't got an answer. Seriously. Do I have a choice? I guess not. Just need to suck it up and STUDY. (HARD ARRRGGGGHHHHHH) 

So, I guess I can't post my novel for now (since I haven't got the rejection letter and stuff). But I wish I won't need to post it here. How good it's going be become a REAL book, but sigh, life's tough. I don't think I can get it easily without the same amount of disappointment. 

Cross my fingers.