Changes

Yeah. If you notice, I've change the templates and layouts of my blog. And I'm writing in English instead of Chinese now (obviously).

Not that I despise Chinese ( OF COURSE NOT), it's just that it's been a long time since I wrote an English post. And that was in my other blog, which I forgot the password. Yeah, typical.
I did these changes because I need distractions from something (will write later after I got an answer), and my blog's old look was a bit childish. Plus, I'm not that a honeydew anymore.

This is kinda cool, but frustrated somehow, to change the look of a blog. Especially to find something that goes with you, or your nature. It's damn hard. I can't say I manage, but yeah, something like that. I can't seem to get a background that represents ME, but I can't say anything bad about this current one--it's cute.

It's like getting to know yourself all over, especially when you're writing the introduction (that one I can't avoid, I must change my age and something), you're finding new stuffs about yourself, and old stuff that you know better than anyone else.

Trying to summarize myself down to a paragraph is the worst. It's like grinding my brain up for something interesting about me to write. Yeah, I can think a TONS of things about myself. But when I got my butt down on this very chair, all of it just 'pop' like a bubble. It's so frustrating. But I sort of manage to list down a few of my crappy information, though.

Changes are good, I think. It's a part of growing up and self-reflection and stuff. I'm not really the 'changing' kind of person, but I don't like being dull either. I brave myself up for challenges that interest me and I'm a dreamer. You can say I go with my feelings and my mood, well, that's true.

But some changes aren't good. Like all those wild mood swings (unavoidable when you're waiting your dream knock), and reality and finals. I hate those changes. It made me bitter and sarcastic (so unhealthy). But it did ended up helping me to write a lot of songs.

Yeah, and speaking of song-writing, I tried a new kind of style--rap music. Yes, I did write a rap song. Weird, huh? I usually write songs about my life and stories inside my head, sort of a little country and blue and relax. I can't say rap music is my expertise, but I did try my best. What I did found out is that I can only sing but not rap. Ha. So I did another version of that song, writing in some verses so I can sing.

That's some kind of changes that are fun. I mean, it's not CRIMINAL to put some foul words into a rap song. Instead of making it worse, they make it COOL. But well, I did tone down some "words" a little, ha.

So, I, uh, just hope that the other changes that are going to happen in my life (so soon it makes me so sick), is going to turn out just fine. In fact, I'll like it to be perfect.

Oh God, please let my dream happen!!!!!