Back Story Of "Freedom From Me"

Yup. That's right. I did another song again and it's another one of my original songs. If you wanna check it out: 

http://youtu.be/F6Y-7QZrwN4

Go on, it wouldn't hurt to click on. It'll satisfy your curiosity and it's healthy to be curious and click on the link above. Trust me, I don't bite. I sing.

The week before, I did a cover of Taylor Swift's Blank Space (HERE) and I figured I might as well do songs alternatively, as in, original song then cover then original song again. I didn't really have a song in mind and I was fumbling for ideas last night when I accidentally came across this song. I really have no other ideas of what to choose (it's really tough to choose from so many songs... where you started to judge everything) so I told myself to suck it up and just do it.

So after a lot of thinking, here's another song I wrote during August or September. I can't really remember, since I was having my trail exams and I only copied it down into my files post-exams. So the date isn't that accurate as I always only jot down the date I copied it, instead of the date I finished it.

I'm so odd.

This song obviously isn't my personal experience or something, since it's an emotional, relationship-wise song. It's about a girl who gave everything she had into a relationship, but the relationship still broke into pieces in the end. 

I wrote this (again) in class and I sorta pictured the scenario a bit. The first line came from nowhere, and I just started from there and eventually pictured a post-breakup scenario and continued from there. I was actually picturing an dark living room with furniture that's sort of covered in dust. And there's that girl with long, dark hair who sat in the middle of the mess, her eyes were blank and she's staring at nothing. Yep, flashbacks started.

My friends sort of cannot get the point of the last two lines of the song (I cut my wings and keep bleeding on/ So you'll get your freedom from me). They're confused why the girl cut her wings so that the guy who dumped her will get his freedom? 

The truth is, me too. 

That line, too, like the first line, completely came out of nowhere. I didn't think of it, my hands just automatically wrote it. I can't really explain it, quite logically. But I think, I must subconsciously believe that the girl imaginatively cut her wings, so she can't fly off with the boy into another journey. She kept herself on the ground, so that the boy can fly higher without her trapping him down.

Weird, but that's how I eventually figured it out.

I'll post the lyrics here so you guys can see for yourself.

I thought I give you everything I can

But my everything's nothing to you

I cracked my head finding for solutions

But you took it easier by break me off

I was paralyzed on the spot where you left

Said we can still be friends if I wanted to

I bit my tongue till I tasted red

So I won't be begging for you to stay

#The look in your eyes haunt me in my dreams

I cried and I tried to make everything right

The words you said stung me over again

And I collected pieces of my heart you broke

And lied to myself that I'll be fine

That I'll be fine

I hid the stuffs you gave under my bed 

Cause I couldn't bear to throw them away

I wrote your name over and over again

And I burned the photos so I'll forget

Friday night all alone you were not by my side

I don't know if I can get my sparkle back

I lost my sleep straight for days and months

So I won't see your face behind my lids

#

You tried to call me a few times 

But I left the phone ringing

Saw you across the street

I turned and left

Don't you understand

We just couldn't be friends

Not when I need you in another way

So I said here's your freedom from me

Don't say sorry I can't take it

#

I cut my wings and keep bleeding on

So you'll get your freedom from me

Though the last two lines didn't really make sense, but it's my favorite two lines. Call it a hunch, I don't know.

So I guess I'll come back next time with a cover (any suggestions?) and if you like my songs or covers, you are totally welcome to subscribe me on YouTube.

Till next time you lovely people.

xx