Okay. This is really really sensitive, so I'm going to change the scenario a bit. As in, change the whole story. But my annoyance is still the same, chill.
Anyway, I am a person who is very, very stubborn (tenancy or pigheadedness, you choose) and I am quite straightforward sometimes. Well, I'm working on being subtle (because even honesty is the best policy, it still stings people. WHATEVER) and kind and all that stuff. But the thing is, I have a limit. As in, a limit for being really patient or subtle or kind or let people down slowly, especially when that person is bugging me for like, a thousand times. Shit.
I'll admit I am quite harsh, and definitely not SWEET at all (heaven forbid), so don't expect any bullshit fake kindness for me. Oh yeah, I'll be kind and gentle, but not when I was annoyed, PUH-LEEZE.
There's that thing: I'm not exactly a "camp" person. Or you can say, I really hate outdoor activities, i.e.: having fun, go camping, hiking or whatever... especially you have to do it with a big fake smile plastered on your face and say, "Oh hey, I'm SOOOOO having a GREAT time." when you're so NOT. So no, I don't enter any kind of camp or games or something. (and yes, please don't ask me, I'll bite)
But the thing is, when you resolute to be good and kind and understanding and be oh-so Mother Theresa-like (only I can be ancient, but not as kind as her), you simply can't let people down harshly. Except you're so pissed off when that particular person kept bugging you about it and want to know the freaking reason why you can't (or don't, in my case) go to that damn outdoor activities. Just saying.
I received an invitation from someone to enter some technically-not-outdoor-activities-but-still-need-to-pretend-you-enjoy-yourself-thing. The thing is, I'm not available that day, and I don't feel like going (okay, this is a huge part). But the reason I'm not available is that I promised my little brother to go shopping with him and have fun (he wants to go for like, ages, I just can't disappoint him when I canceled it so many times before, right?) and stuff, but I just said I don't want to go to that particular thing. And I really don't feel like it. Argh.
And I didn't explain or anything, and I forgot to be polite (though I don't know why politeness end up in this, WHAT THE HELL) and I made someone disappointed. Shit. It's like I'm back in primary school all over again, DISAPPOINTED? Well, people need to LEARN to live with disappointment, dude. Sigh.
Anyway, that someone said I ignored the text sent, but actually (I'm not going to lie) I did ignore that text. I DIDN'T KNOW THAT IT'S THAT SOMEONE WHO SENT IT. Hello, I was actually engrossed in TV, and I knew my phone vibrated but like hell I opened it (I didn't open it). Then that person sent another text to me telling me that I ignored that text before, how could I explain? I'm like totally whatever.
You might say "oh, you need to go explain so you can clear that misunderstanding or stuff" but I'm not in some stupid Korean Drama or a really bad soap, okay? Explaining sounds like you did something wrong but you're clearing up. NOT.
Anyway, I'm a bitch enough (muahaha) so does it really matter I'm being really sort of not polite (mean, yes, I know) even though it's sort of a misunderstanding (sort of is because that I really don't want to go, NO REASON. Do you have to turn up a reason for POOPING or BREATHING? It's part of my make-up to hate going out, okay?) and stuff. Whatever. I won't go and clear up, we're not kids anymore. It seemed really idiotic. And childish. Whatever.
So, obviously I was bitching around unintentionally.
Lesson learnt : Bitches can't be kind (or couldn't avoid some kind of misunderstanding to be kind) so suck it up.
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