Hell, it's 2014 (HELP)

As it seems on the title, yes, I'm not feeling terribly excited for this new year, because this year is my last year in high school, and that means PRESSURE. Yeah, it seems like only a few months ago before I'm a freaky freshman (cliche, but not exactly) and now, OMG, I'm still a freak (no less) but a senior. SENIOR, in high school. It seems a pretty big thing, but no, I don't feel anything special about it. I mean, I don't go around like Rapunzel sweeping floor with my extra-long blonde hair and singing about new day new hope or something like that. I look at myself in the mirror, and I'm still the old me. Nothing change, not much, anyway.

And you know, new years are about resolutions, and hell, I never really accomplish one before (guilty, not so). People tend to write a long list about less TVs, more work, less food, more exercises and stuffs. Well, I kept my old resolutions (I even did new month resolutions, never really finish it, anyway) in my journals, and sure as hell I'm not showing anyone, because it's embarrassing. Anyway, I'm not that particularly greedy this new year and I just have one tiny resolution on my list. And it's not that embarrassing about this one, so I guess I'll share it. The major problem isn't setting this resolution on my list, but to actually finish (or accomplish, whatever) it. I mean, I sometimes give up things very easily (unless it's something I really like, for example, my novel and CRIMINAL MINDS), partly (okay, mostly) because of my damn laziness. Which brings us to my resolution this year. Okay, here goes nothing:

MAGGIE'S NEW YEAR RESOLUTION (PLEASE GOD, MAKE THIS HAPPEN):

1) STOP BEING LAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Phew, I'm finished.

Yes, it's clear enough right now. I really sincerely terribly hope that I can realize this resolution, you know, it'll mean a hell LOT to me. I mean, I'm pretty much the laziest girl in the entire universe (if there's alien out there, I outbid them. The thing is, I'm not sure they have gender, whatever, I don't even believe in them) and I'm being in that status for all of my life. It'll make my mom's jaw drops if she sees me studying for once. All I'm capable of is sitting around idling, typing away in my computer, and of course, watch telly and books (novels, not textbooks or revision books). But this is a real important year for me, as I'll be sitting for my SPM exams in this year-end (I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I'M LEAVING MUAR NEXT YEAR, TALK ABOUT CREEPY) and I can't be like this lazy if I want to pass my exams with flying colors (actually, straight As will do, A+s are miracles, mind you) and get into a college and stuff. I mean, I actually have EXPECTATIONS. But all those expectations will crumble if I don't have the mindset to actually study.

Anyway, I shouldn't really be here typing this as I must try to motivate myself (somehow) to study. I'm all so desperate. I'm like, HELP ME, but there's only ME that can help ME. So, I have to figure something to pull me up on shore, so I won't drown. Count on myself, huh. BIG TIME.

Just wanna say something: I NEVER WANTED TO PUKE SO MUCH IN MY ENTIRE EXISTENCE.

Wish me luck (I NEED), and ciao.