Interview (NERVE-WRECKING)

Today is sort of a big day for me. Sort of. Sort of. All right, I'll admit, it's HUGE. Because it's practically the first interview I ever went for a job. I think I was... okay. At least I hope so.

I wasn't really nervous, but I got really really hyper there because, well, obviously I WAS excited. Way too excited, I must say. Then well, it's the old thing. You sat down, and plastered a huge smile on your face and try to look smart. Or at least not dumb.

It was cool actually, that I got to sit there and answer question, except that part I totally wrecked up the first question, I think. Because when the teacher asked me why do I want to work there, I kinda go with the honesty thing. I replied (I translated into English for this piece) : "Well, because it's holiday and I wanna earn some money plus some experience, too."

Then he looked sort of taken aback (I'm so so so so so doom) and stuttered : "Or well, you can say that you wanna learn things here, that'd be better."  Then I'm the one who sort of look taken aback. Well, that's sort of stupid. Apart from that, I think everything else was cool. At least I didn't trip over or doing weird stuff in front of the teacher like burping or pass gas or something. Then THAT would be too embarrassing.

After that I went for a test and all the question there are based on primary school standards. You can say it's easy, but hey, it's not quite easy when you're thinking WAY TOO MUCH, like I did. I sort of freaked myself out by kept telling myself that I don't know how to do. But actually I did, except the fact that some of the questions are quite weird, maybe it's... wrong? Anyway, I got okay until I hit the nilai murni part.

I was totally like "OH SHIT OH DEAR OH GOD OH MY OH ARGHHHHHHH" at that part. Seemed like I was crazy. I was. Back then. I totally forgot how to do the stupid nilai murni thing which is totally in primary school format and I only know how to write in SPM format. So I guess I just simply scribble down something according to my way (I AM SO SO DEAD AHHHHH) and hope I survive this (and it will become a total miracle).

After both the interview and the test, I went back home with my mom (she accompanied me to the interview--but basically she just sat there and read her book--because I accompanied HER to HER interview last year, so she kinda owe me one. Though she never help me in saying anything to the interviewer.) and she said the teacher had came over to talk to her. She said that the teacher told her I was brave and confident, and that I was not like the others who were shy.

That's... a good thing, right?

I don't know. Because sometimes people can mistook confidence as arrogant, and here in Malaysia, modest seems the MOST important thing. Whatever, now I can only just cross my fingers and hope that I get the job and earn my own money.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(I'm desperate)