April Here

I know it's April 5th now, but I'd still like to talk about April because I'm running out of things to talk about. No, that's not true, the one of the pros of being a nagger is that I don't run out of anything to say, EVER. Just that all I ever said are complete bullshit.

April sort of mean something to me, because my birthday lies on April and two of my five closest friends' birthdays are in April, too. And also, there's no public holiday that lies on April and that this is the month that I have to study hard because my midterm's at May. I'm sorry, but can I cry? It's so OVERWHELMING.

And speaking of April and my birthday together, I'm starting to feel a little excited. I'm almost 17! I can't believe it! It seems like it's just yesterday that I was that kid just freshly graduated from primary school instead of leaving high school just this year! Not to mention colleges next year, and where to go and everything. Oh, God. 

I'm secretly hoping that (well since now I'm writing this in here, it doesn't count as a secret, but whatever, nobody really read this anyway) maybe I can achieve something I really wanted to achieve my whole life (sort of) before my birthday, or on my birthday. It seems like a unrealistic goal, but hey, a girl can dream! What I really wanted to achieve isn't to finish a novel (I once finished a Chinese novel, it's not good, but whatever) or to get slim overnight or something. No, what I really wanted (but nonetheless can't achieve in any right sense) to achieve before or on the day of my birthday (I prefer the "before" option) is that I can finally post one of my many songs on YouTube or at least, you know soundcloud. 

This sounds a little... I don't know. I know I can't do that before or the day on my birthday (before I officially turn 17, that's it) because first of all, I suck at finding the accompaniments for my songs and secondly, I don't really have the stuff to record my music and all. I mean, hello, my phone is so passe, and neither one of my parents actually own something that consider "high-tech". So yeah, I guess I should live it up in my dreams, haha.

What I'm really hoping for April is that it can treat me even better than the months before. And that something new (no, not love, please) can pop up in my life and I can have things DONE for once. Is this asking too much? 

One last thing, I really hope that time can pass slower so I won't have to freak out everyday about how much stuff I haven't study yet, and freak over about my piano and all that. I don't want to age by constantly worrying (how odd, that's ALL I ever do in my life) and get tons of wrinkles because I'm just at a tender age of 16+++++.