Hello people!
I know it's May already, and yet I had write a blog post on my birthday. Do forgive me, because I was too busy catching up with life. I had an existential crisis again not long ago, or I like to put it as "me thinking thoroughly what I'm doing with my life phase", but now I feel so much better, so here's another blog post! On my birthday (duh, obviously) and just random recent updates.
It's so unreal! I'm officially eighteen! It feels like yesterday when I was just a freshman student in my secondary school, and look at me now, in college! Well college = struggling to live on my own, and trying very hard not to make my life a huge mess, haha.
That aside, I don't feel any difference. I feel like I'm still me, maybe a little wiser, a little older, and definitely even more sarcastic. I still have the same dreams and fantasies, and I still have the same stand on things I believe in. I still rebel sometimes, get frustrated when I put on extra weight and also can't seem to hold myself back when it comes to food and books! Well, I guess nothing about me really changed much. I'm still me, and that's a comfort to know, since I'm really scared that I'll turn into a stranger when I grow up. One thing is that, I don't really feel all grown up. I still have a lot of growing up to do ahead, especially mentally.
I'm not going to write down a lot on my birthday, because I already did a vlog on my birthday. If you haven't check it out, you can click HERE to watch it. It's my first attempt at doing vlog and it may not be the best one, but I did give my best in doing it! You can see I got a little uncomfortable at first, but eventually got used to it. The only downside of doing it is I got a lot of weird glances from strangers, thinking I'm probably cuckoo, talking into my phone as I walked.
Anyway, my birthday was kinda fun. It's my first birthday spent away from my family, so I was kinda sad because we always celebrate my birthday together as a whole. We did did an early celebration, and my mom cook mee sua for my birthday (which is kinda a tradition in my family).
My mom did call just after midnight to wish me a happy birthday, and it's kinda sweet. I missed them so much during my birthday, but it's also kinda cool celebrating it with my friends.
I was actually late to class the morning of my birthday. Not late late, but like 5 minutes late. I tiptoed in class, not wanting to disturb them, or rather draw any attention to myself. But then my psychology teacher who seemed to know it's my birthday said happy birthday to me, and the whole class broke into a chorus of "Happy Birthday!" and then starting to sing the happy birthday song. It's so nice of them, but given the fact that I don't know what to do when others are singing, it made me felt kinda awkward. Then my friends actually gave me a cute little paper with "FREE MEAL" or "FREE LUNCH" on the paper which the expiry date was my birthday. It's obvious my lunch was on them, haha. After class, me and PY went to Sunway Pyramid to get some desserts for my birthday (or just for the sake's of our cravings) and at night, sotong bought me cake and we went to BBQ plaza for dinner. I know, I know, I'm going to put on some solid weight after all those food. And yes, I did put on weight.
Serves me right.
Yes, that's a lot of food, and it's not all of it, because I don't wanna to upload tons of photos, haha. That doesn't really stop here, because Nicole's birthday was just a day after mine (mine was on 23rd April) and sotong's birthday was just a few days after. So... more food.
Okay. Enough of food. It's currently midnight here, and I'm having the idea of dieting in my mind. Looking at food is definitely not going to help, at all.
Yesterday I hanged out with my group of secondary school besties, and I can't believe how much I missed them! During secondary school we always spent our recess time together and was almost always together. I missed them so much in my life. They were a constant, like the air, till I took them for granted. And now only know that I miss them so terribly much when I'm in college. Whenever I feel down or anything, I ran straight to them in our group chat, and they always seemed to make me feel a lot better about myself. We all headed in different directions, and it's kinda sad to know that we can't spend as much time as before. It'll be worse if anyone of us go overseas to study. Well, Janine (one of my girls) went to Singapore, but that's okay since it's only like 3 hours away from our hometown.
This makes me really sad and happy both at the same time. Sad that we head into different directions and continue on with lives, and happy that we all sort of dived into what we're really after in our lives. I'm so happy I got to meet up with them yesterday. A couple of hours was not enough for us to chat and gossip, and I'm definitely looking forward to my semester break, which is coming in a month! Of course, I'm so not excited about the semester exams that's coming before my holiday, ugh.
I can't believe it's May already! I still feel like it's the start of the year, not the middle of it. May, please be good to me. Less existential crisis and more hardworking please, haha. The one thing I really hope is that I can be less of a procrastinator. That'll make my life a heck lot easier.
Ooh, and remember I said about my weight gain? My mom said that I really need to go on a diet or something. Well, when my mom said that, it's kinda serious. I think I really need to go on a strict diet or something, which means that there won't be as much food photos on my blog post like today. I think it's good for me to cut down my food intake, because it's kinda getting out of hand. I can actually stuffed in food after food without thinking how much weight I can put on! It's also really unhealthy of me to eat a lot of oily food and chocolate. I feel so guilty.
So start from today, I'm trying to eat more fruits and vegetables and try not to overeat (which is really, really hard for me, because I binge eat a lot). Exercise is a must (according to my mom) but I'm really lazy to move around. Let's just see how.
Wish me luck.
It's kinda late now, and I have to stop. It seems like I always write my blog post late at night this year, hmm. This is also a very bad habit.
Anyhoo.
Till next time people!
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