Hell. It's been a long time since I got onto my blog and renew. It feels SO good, except that typing right now reminds me of my English essay, and I am so so SO freaking out.
Today I sort of got my English essay's result, but, well, I don't really like the marks on it. Well, the teacher claimed my language is good, but maybe my writing is not THAT formal for a SPM essay. You know, maybe a little more like writing a novel, instead of an essay. So, yeah, I am a little disappointed, but what can I do? Except from practicing writing more "formally", of course.
Except the fact that I am not writing "formally" right now. Huh. Whatever.
Anyway, exam is over. But I don't feel free or relieve. I am actually worrying about my results. Worry-sick. I didn't study much, and well, that didn't help much in exam. I just hope I don't fail anything, and get a few As (I've given up on A+).
So probably I will work hard, as in trying to stop myself from watching TOO many TV shows. God, that is so HARD. But anyway, I'll try. I don't want to end up failing my SPM, then I can't get myself into a college. My mom will so KILL me. Well, I'll kill myself too.
There's only one thing for me to figure out: HOW TO WRITE MORE FORMALLY IN MY ESSAY???? I already got used to my slapstick writing style (or even sarcastic), and changes are really hard. But, huh, I don't think I have a choice.
Oh God, my brother is practically nagging at me for bugging the computer. So, huh, I guess I gotta go. More later. Or tomorrow. WHATEVER.
